Change Your Heart- (The Subconscious mind and its affect on habitual thought patterns affecting actions)

Since my pregnancy, Ive realized I've lost my filter when it comes to allowing my thoughts to become action and word.  You know some things should not be said or done even if you think them.  My husband has had to deal with this and last night I had an epiphany.  It occurred to me that I had said something to him that I've though but not said in prior relationships because of the damage it could cause as well as knowing that it was a response not based on facts as much as how I felt in that moment.  I said to him " You don't care about me, no one does".  Was this true? No.  Have I said worse things? yes.  So what made this statement so important?  Because I realized it was something that has been imbedded in my subconscious mind.

I used to think that thought don't matter much when you are emotional as long as you don't act on them.  Now I realize that all thought always matters.  In this way, the hormonal effects of pregnancy have been a blessing where I thought it was a curse.  Now I know for a fact that every thought, sound, ect effects the development of the unborn child. So I can understand that this is happening to make me consciously aware of what I am feeding my unborn.  It is easy to dismiss thoughts as irrelevant when you have the discipline not to act on them.  We are taught that that ability is applaudable.  However, that teaching is wrong.  It is time for us to evolve.  Time for me to evolve.

You think based on what is hidden in your heart/ subconscious.  It is a part of who you are  whether you act on those thoughts or not.  Some of us are taught that our thoughts come from places outside of us (ie. satan, god, angels, entities, other people around us).  Though what we perceive as thought can be derived from some of those sources, there is a difference and we should stop allowing these type of teachings to prevent us from taking responsibility for our thought habits and traumatic recoveries.

Your private thoughts are due to the conditioning of your heart.  Change your thoughts.  Change your life.

Love

Love

     This word in the english language has come to mean many things... and has varying degrees of intensity.  In other languages and cultures, the language to describe love is more developed. I've always wondered why that is.  Im sure we all have experienced various degrees of love. For many, unfortunately in our culture here in America, love has become a taboo word... a word that is fantasy and has not real value or meaning other than what is placed upon it.  My question is: Is it on purpose that no other variations of the word exist in the English language?  We all know that English is becoming "the" international language.  Is this a part of the plot to remove the conception of love from the minds of humanity?  Is it a plot to keep men in a primitive state?  There is nothing as nurturing to the mind, body, and spirit as love and unfortunately, most even in their old age are confused about its definition in our culture.  In other cultures, the different word variations for the expression make it quite clear and understood.  Other cultures do not doubt love... it is an obvious part of life for them.  I'm sure this is not true for all cultures, but most outside of European influence/colonization.

    Personally, I see this as hurting the black american (Moorish) community most as this is a category of persons who have been taught self hatred for centuries.  How can a community develop self love in a culture that does not cultivate the exchange of love at all?

    Its its highest and purest form, love is selfless.  Its the love you give/share without any expectation in return.  We all need love to survive, however we can survive without love in its purest form.  Most people in our culture will go through life having never experienced true love.  Many Religions come in to play here because a great number of people in desperation to experience this love they know should exist run to churches, mosques, temples, ect, in order to purify themselves from the corruption of the world.  What is this corruption that is spoken of?  I believe it is the loveless, primitive, unevolved nature of mankind.

Who is mankind?  That is another book in itself that many pan african scholars have spoken about.  I will not go into that in this blog.  However, those who are aware, already know what I'm inferring here.

Christianity in its pure form provides the best depiction of what it means to really love.  It gives the most comprehensive definition of the word love(in its purest form).   However many have seen its message abused by the narcissists of this primitive culture that so many are now aspiring to out of greed.  Yet even so, I've seen many transformed by the power of love, even if only in theory and in the imagination.  "For God so loved the world that he sent his only begotten son that they might have eternal life."  This is a story. No one has to see Jesus in the flesh.  All they have to do is believe in this love and their lives are transformed just from the idea that they are loved by this selfless individual who wants whats best for them.  Just think if we as human beings, really began to love one another in this way?  How would we change the world?  Instead most of live in fear, which is the enemy of love.  We like the story, we like how this imaginary love changes us... why not make this a reality in your everyday life and relationships.

   We are taught that humanity is sinful.   Jesus carried the sin of the world... Jesus was tempted... yet he ignored his base desires and loved anyway.  We can do the same thing.  The bible states this.  Yet we live in a so called  Christian society that is one of the most loveless societies on the planet.  I believe this is because people have gotten so caught up in a lie... love has become a fictional story that can only be realized in the imagination.  This is a sad reality that I refuse to embrace.  I have experienced this fictional love as well as real love (that which has been demonstrated in real time, in this life, not only in my heart/imagination).  Love in the imagination will only carry you so far... Real Love amongst souls however is transformational and evolutionary.


To be continued...

What made you go Natural?... Have you really gone?

I'm still working on truly connecting with my natural self.  A lot of people hear the world natural as a description of a woman and just think about her having a natural hairstyle.  There is a lot more to be natural or connected to your natural self than hair.  I think thats where a lot of people get it mixed up because they are so focused on the external appearances which has nothing to do with actually change mentally, emotionally, and to any great degree physically.

Here in the USA we are so far removed from what is natural that natural itself has to be redefined.  You see a food item that says natural and you still cannot trust that it was not created in a laboratory. I mean are you truly natural just because you decided not to make your hair straight?  I'm sure many women with kinky hair still put all kinds of chemicals on their hair and body to compensate for their insecurities (Made in America).   Let's not even discuss what they put into their mouths.

I mean really when was the last time you even sat outside... not at a park where the grass is cut daily and there is a built in pond and some ducks thrown in there for effect.  I mean really gone to a place that is natural and wild.  Most living here in the good ole US of A cannot say that they have... so lets stop with this natural fad... and replace that word with authentic... then we will see who's really real.

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Parapsychology

     Lately I've really been playing around with the concept of thought transference and the idea of what separates Telepathy from Schizophrenia.  I often have people message me or desire services from me that are obviously psychotic or schizophrenic. Due to the fact that I do not have a degree in psychology,  I most likely will turn this people away.  I do understand that what I do is very similar to that of a professional psychiatrist.  I've actually been very inspired by many psychiatrist.  It was a psychiatrist who taught me to distract my conscious mind while allowing my subconscious to heal itself, which it will do.  This is what makes meditation so relevant.

Personally, I am able to hear voices. I hear when people think loudly around me and I most certainly hear the thoughts of those I care about.  I know that what I hear is real by the many confirmation that I receive from those around me. Like hearing something said before the person speaks or hearing someone answer my question before I ask it or even communicating on a regular basis with friends who also have a heightened psychic awareness.  So whats the difference then between me and the guy even I would deem "crazy"?

I'v been considering a degree in parapsychology so that I can study this for myself.  Currently my hypothesis is that the have not gained a level of psychic understanding and control that would allow them to manage these voices and find their own.  My observations have also brought me to believe that these individual are possibly to open to external psychic influences with no strong hold over their own mind and possibly being energetically booted out of their own bodies at times.  Of course I would need to study people diagnosed with these two things quite a bit more as well as the many phenomenons I know to exist in real time such as telepathy and outer body experiences.

Other than evidence, what is it that makes an individuals experience real and another's an illusion?

Just something to think about for a while.

Just Writing

My life is amazing. However, that's not what I'm going to write about. I'm writing because I want to express my mind in a way that may seem awkward if I were not writing because people never think or converse that deeply in day to day life. Who made up grammatical rules anyway? Who said that they had the best way of speech and communication? Did they study the mind? What makes them an expert? Maybe I'm the expert. Maybe I'm the expert at everything that I do. Who else can be an expert at being me?

I've realized that it doesn't matter what I write as long as I write.

Who can judge what is writing and what is not? Did they create the skill itself and decide what to name it? What did the creator have in mind? Do we know? Maybe writing is simply a way to communicate thought in a form it can be understood with the eyes, yet requires very little movement with the body. Maybe it is a more effective communication style because it leaves very little to interpretation. Does writing stunt creativity? I always feel more creative when I am writing. Maybe it is a way for the ego and the spirit to find peace and harmonious being within one body.

Who Are You?

     Letting things flow naturally can prove to be a difficult challenge in western society where everyone seeks to present an image of being in control, on top, perfect.

     It has become a recipe for robotism instead of organic divinity.  A lot of times we focus on our lives in a way that contributes to this roboticism… we seek to change things and manipulate our environment to produce change when the greatest change factor is to focus inward and project from the essence of who you are.

     When you began to project from that place of security and acceptance of the nature of things around you-- everything begins to shift according to who you are.  The question is…

 Who are you?